New leaf of my life...

Gosh it has been over a year since I have written new blog...I am so sorry but so much has happened,life has showed me so many ups n down.Some sad n some good news came,some sorrow n some happiness I've seen but it has taught me so much.

Since I have lost so much weight in the past due to my sudden illness I have been trying to gain but my health is out bound on not to budge from the last no. to any more new no. of weight.I have tried to eat anything to everything but no help..

Anyways I have just past my Birthday on the 1st of September..feel like old person.Years are passing by but no new change.That's what I was thinking but wait my destiny has surprise for me..God has found me somebody,infect the person himself found me,total amazing surprise.:)

I am so happy n excited these days...feels like teenager.Should I feel this way?I mean I can't stop think about him,Can't stop smiling,My mood is really energetic,what is happening to me I had no idea..Dare I say I am in love?I have never ever felt like this before.I have given up on my life after what ever happened to me..it was very sad part of my life.Although I am very strong physically n mentally,but some time you can't be everything..something got to give.

Maybe I have said too much to soon!Let's see how it goes..just pray for me.Kids are growing fast,One has already left me n went to college,another one will leave me in couple of years..then just me n my son..what will I do after that?So many questions n still no answer..But I know the one person who will never leave me it's my God.I have seen his kindness to me n my family..he has taken care of me in my worst moment.He has never let me down.If he thinks I should be with somebody who is equally loveable,kind,smart and passionate as me then sure,he has send me that person.:)

It will take time for me to get wormed up to write more efficient in here..Pardon my English friends!There is so much to tell but all in good times..I know no one dare to write personal stuff here..but hey there is nothing personal when you are happy.I say why the heck not tell out loud to the world.I am not hiding my happiness from the world anymore.I don't like to pretend.

Tell me something or better yet give me the advice on "Love"...How do you know you are in love?Can you love somebody form their letters or listening to heir voice?Now don't think I am in online affair or something like that..lemme clear that "I am not"I will be fool to feel that way.

Here is my new quotes that written by me,hope you agree with me.:)

"Smile little ,Laugh more,Let go the grudges,Accept the problems,Learn from your mistake,Cherish whom you love,Always be faithful,Be honest,Respect the elders,Be proud who you are inside-out...
Because you never know how much time you have left on this beautiful earth!:)"

My relationship with my Health

Years ago I had very good moments with someone and poof it just disappear in a moment..how that happened?Probably it's my fault I started sensing betrayal,gradually I started to change too!I know now I should have wait n repair or work hard to save those precious moments.you know what at that moment I didn't realize what I was doing to my self n that person but as much as my fault it was that person's too!we both should have take time save what we got.It is true as they say"Don't take anything for granted"Obviously we did n now we are at least I am regrate it..I want my happiness back n also my health.
Everyone says often that just let it go,if it's yours it will come back and if it's doesn't comeback then it was never yours....yeah right!Who said that?no one informed me what will I supposed to do when it won't come back...do I have to start all over again?Do you even know how much work n effort you have to put to start what you had before.
People says that I look same as 20 yrs. ago...Do I really?How much do you know about me?Hahaha....
You guys must be wondering what am I babbling about...I was talking about my health n weight loss that I have right now...what were you thinking?You must be thinking you don't need to gain weight but I do...I need to look like my age not like my daughter age.Sometimes it's so embarrassing that she feels so jealous of me n it saddens me..:(
Anyways people who knows me know who I am...I have lost contact with old ID"1,2,cha..cha.."so this is my new ID..so feel free to put your advice for me here...